with increasing self-awareness, the barriers put up over these years become more and more apparent. so much that i am not even willing to think about, much less talk about. and so i flinch.
“I held my heart back from positively accepting anything, since I was afraid of another fall, and in this condition of suspense I was being all the more killed.”
-Augustine of Hippo
but He knows it all
/reminded that human beings suck. there is no exception.