crying in public is truly not a good look.. Lord You move in such interesting ways, but also completely on point hahahah.

‘He knows what a wretched machine you are trying to drive. Keep on. Do what you can. One day (perhaps in another world, but perhaps far sooner than that) He will fling it to the scrap heap and give you a new one.’ – C.S. Lewis.

my hope is not in today.




dont need to achieve fancy big things- help me to be faithful with what You have placed in this life in this moment

reminded of the importance of being prepared at all times, in season n out of season.. experience and personal encounters are not sufficient to convince n convict…

but then again, is it really our responsibility to convict?

fix my eyes on the things that i can’t see now, Spirit breathe like the wind come have Your way

grieved a little, then lifted it up to the Lord. it comes back time and again, and He asks ‘why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?’ have Your way, and humble me. You know best

‘My own struggle makes me more patient with others who are on the way. And in one sense, we are all on the way. Even when we know things biblically and truly — things clear enough and precious enough to die for — we still see through a glass dimly (1 Corinthians 13:12). There can be many tears as we seek to put our ideas through the testing fires of God’s word.’ – John Piper

isnt it funny, feeling so unsure and worried about something but at the same time feeling assured – confident almost that i would get what i want? if it is Your will for this life, let it happen.

every night i come home and am reminded that love is a choice you make each day that translates into action.

Say not my soul, “from whence
Can God relieve my care?”
Remember that Omnipotence
Hath servants everywhere

His help is always sure,
His methods seldom guessed;
Delay will make our pleasure pure;
Surprise will give it zest.

His wisdom is sublime,
His heart profoundly kind;
God never is before His time,
And never is behind.

Hast thou assumed a load
Which none will bear with thee?
And art thou bearing it for God,
And shall He fail to see? J. J. Lynch

– in “The Disciplines of Life” by V. Raymond Edman

His wisdom is sublime, His heart profoundly kind; God never is before His time, And never is behind.. and i am left speechless and in awe. how else could i respond?

srsly have half a mind to sign up for 22 tmr even though i havent started studying for policy yet…… procrastination truly knows no end and also v sad that the trial is ending 😦 

if only, if only…

‘The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.’
[Matthew 13:44-46]