mind moving too quickly why the words cannot form as quickly ugh



am so drawn to palliative care yet cant seem to start speaking seriously to parents about acp and preferences and end of life hmmmm. family and friends are always the hardest clients erm but ya bcos they arent clients hahahahahalel. same with looking at sft and satir

conversation w a friend reminded me that it is the hard to love we ought to love more. also reminded today that it is God and only God that does all the work in another’s heart.. ~encouraged~ that i might feel helpless but can still be hopeful 😀

this one ministered to me months back:

Before I took a breath
You breathed Your life in me
You have been so, so
Kind to me

Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn’t earn it
I don’t deserve it
Still You give yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God

When I was your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so
Good to me
When I felt no worth
You paid it all for me
You have been so, so
Kind to me

You don’t give Your heart in pieces 🙂 

learning again to love another, not in convenience or comfort-

13 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

1 Cor 13:1-7

the past two years have hardened this heart
but i should not push the blame-



magic hour

coming face to face with oneself seems extra hard at times. ‘what next?’ can become a crippling question. praying for humility, and grace to see the beauty in each day and each individual