Last night we surprise skyped these people¬†and sat through tech class, and it made me so so so happy ūüôā¬†didn’t realise that i missed de and these people so much, and i am so grateful we met la omg through all the rage and tears and madness together :’) looking at these screenshots make me smile everytime ahahah LOL¬†@ our joy/ shock while watching tech HAHAHAH damn drama i can’t….. but also can’t wait to be back and dancing tgt for tnw again altho will probably suck aft so many mths of not dancing… ūüôā


october is over!!

!!! survived two of the craziest months.. only with God’s grace ūüôā
Oct was a good month, got pulled back into reality somewhere in the middle of the month. Survived MT screening and follow up along with weekend rehearsals, worked a few times, done w/ two presentations, caught Carnations and Decadance, done with muse (!!), met more friends/ fam in this mth than I have in the entire semester. Everything seems so long ago¬†but oh God did it really all happen this month…….. got lost in all the buzz halfway and felt so, so tired at one point of time, but..

Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.
-Isaiah 40:26

a few more presentations and assignments + finals, nhs interviews, CS interviews….. and.. ūüôā

calls for a glass 2 celebrate

don’t know how, but really lucked out to have found a group of people so committed and loyal. so happy and grateful to be sharing the stage with these people, and to be bearing each other’s burdens despite being in different items. and to be inspired by the crazy humans that continue dancing despite work n injuries n still kill every show.. would rly dance with DE forever with these people ūüôā

on another note,
my face always looks the ugliest the day after theatre week bcos i get so used to seeing how it looks like with makeup… if only it was easier to put on and remove ūüė•

You have won my heart

James 1:4-6  (NIV)
4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. (tq sheryl ūüôā )

for the first time in the longest time, i’ll be on time for svc without having to rush from place to place, without being hungry and tired, and without having to worry about¬†any other thing~ i am bursting~~~~~

on the edge

last week and murphy’s law strikes…. thought i¬†understood ‘anything that can go wrong will go wrong’ and thought i would be unfazed but NOPE. it’s almost like all these disasters were planning an attack and sUrPRISEEEEE! 2 assignments due in a few days but that is srsly the least of my worries…. at¬†least i know now that management is really¬†not my kind of thing – i’d be burdened to death and die of high blood pressure or something…. if it’s even possible. i know i’ll survive this week but i just think it is so ludicrous that everything can go so wrong. and that the other 7o+ people involved in this production aren’t even aware of all these mini heart attacks i get every single day and just take everything for granted. as jy said, it is¬†rly a luxury to be able to go for reh¬†w/o having to worry about¬†anything else.

would say nothing can faze me now but not gonna jinx it
oOoOOoOOoo just finished the whole tub of ice cream lel in 2 nights……. stress eating is so real

NONETHELESSSSSS so thankful for God’s grace and the anGelZzzZ around me who make sure i never feel like i’m in this alone, even on worse days with panic attacks and mindless ranting :’) know i shouldnt be wasting time on this but it’s not like i’d be able to do anything with this crazy headache lel

a song can rise from the ashes of a broken life

was prompted to take the bus to sgh instead of taking the train, which reminded me of what i have missed out on/ neglected in my busyness. would usually either 1) train because ¬†rushing from place to place/ ownself¬†think i am damn busy and want to save time LOL or 2) cab because lazy to walk into¬†sgh and risk the time getting lost. Have been far too pampered with friends who drive/ living so near school and church. As the bus went past the older estates it felt like time rly slowed down. Maybe because it was a really long time¬†LOL the bus ride was close to an hour even though outram is <15 minutes away from my place by car…. but what a reminder.

and my heart ached a little. for the old man on the motorbike, with his shoes and bottle tied to the back of his bike. i wondered if that was all or most of his possessions. for the old lady sitting at some random spot who asked me for money. for the uncle who fell on the bus because it moved when he was trying to keep hiz ezlink card. for the number of elderly who were walking in and out of sgh alone. looked at the flats and imagined hundreds of families and thousands of human beings….. with the realisation again that we cannot save everyone.¬†and i wonder if i will have the courage to stay in this profession.

said a prayer for those i saw, and those i may have missed out.
and in that hour i felt more alive than i have in the longest time


  • SooOoOoO bored of¬†conversations where everyone just wants to talk talk talk and nobody wants to¬†actually listen.¬†can’t deny that i am sometimes guilty of that too though. an ‘active listening’ module would do the world so much good.
  • ughhsdfiowjefoiajsd finding it so hard to focus and just BE there, body mind and soul.¬†really don’t want finish this realising that i remained the¬†same person i was before. but the flesh is weak!!!! so!! weak!!!!! discipline is so hard¬†when you don’t have no passion.
  • Talked about openness and vulnerability during tutorial today and what stuck¬†was: ‘how comfortable are you with being uncomfortable???’
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